Such a stupid thing

I hold his hand and started to walk. I didn’t really look in his eyes. Suddenly he stopped walking. I looked at him. "Did he try something with you? Because I'll kill him." He stared at the air. I smiled. "No he didn’t don’t worry." I thought he'd smile or something, but he just turn his head and looked my eyes seriously. "What's wrong?" I let lose his hand. He looks really serious, I don’t know what happened. "Do you still love him?" He asked with a shaking voice, he tried to hide it though..
I turn my face down. I noticed he is still looking at me. I had to give him an answer. "Yes, I do." I said without looking at him. He looked down and didn’t say anything. I stand in front of him. He still looked down. I lift his face, I tried to stand on my toes.. I kissed him. He looked kind of surprised. I don’t even know where it came from.
"I don’t love him as my date or my lover, I don’t love him as my friend either.." He looked so confused, Its kind of cute for some reason. "I just love him as a person." I said quietly, thinking this whole idea is stupid. I saw he still looking at me with his face. "I don’t even want to see him anymore in my life." I said quickly. I felt his hand touching mine for helf a second. But he just pulled it right back. Then he just stared at me. I took his hand and started walking again. "Why are you so stupid? Dammit…"