I wish I had a color

I wish I had a color,
’cause I'm getting tired of being transparent.
I wish I had a word
that was what so called important.
If I could take all the content that fills the air,
maybe then, I'll have something to share.
I wish I had a wish, a dream or a desire,
a force of a will that can start an unstoppable fire.
I wish I wasn't a reality doll,
which gets pushed without decision like a pinball.
I wish I wasn't so easy to get,
so you can hurt me and get away with it.
If I could make a choice of my life,
and wouldn't be frightened by devil's knife.
I wish I wasn't who I am today,
I WISH I HAD SAID WHAT I HAD TO SAY.