So much me inside of myself

I have so much me inside of myself
I have no where to go
No where to run
Everyone tell me the truth inside me
I wanna let it go, but I don't know how
Shame and pain choke my throat
I want them to crumble
And I'm trying to get above the water
For my last breath

My heart is drained away and it just not care where it go
Everything erupts and crashes
Bleeding in every spot over your soul
Everything I know break into pieces
I don't know how it used to be
My definition melt around you every time I see you
I hate to seek after you

You blow up my mind with your particular way
How more I can find you?
I can't see you
You ran away
So if you want me
Probably you'll not be able to see me in the other side
This is my complicated side of me, one of the others inside of myself
And you triggered all the parts of me
So how is it being like myself?
Ask it yourself.