Nobody Knows

You know what?
life isn't so easy as you think.
you know how many things I had to pass in this this life?
No. you don't know anything! So why the hell are you judging me? did I ever did something awful to you? did I? and if I did why can't you just say it Instead of hurting me like that? why?
You know what I'm saying to myself every day so I won't break down? so I won't cry out?
You know?
No. you don't. you don't know anything about me. about how much it's hard for me to wake up every morning, to dress up, to look in the mirror and force myself to smile. you don't know how many times I've tried to smile without tears falling down on my face. how many times I've said to myself- "It's ok, it's soon going to be over. Just keep smiling, you'll see that tomorrow will be a better day. "
And you know, everyday it's more painfull from the other day. everyday I fell more and more depressed, and I'm drowning in my own tears. But nobody knows. anything. everybody thinks they know me. even you. but in fact? you don't know! nobody knows. anything about me. about my life. nobody.