Hurt and fucked up

it's time to be honest.
the fact is the truth
and i fucking dont have
to go through all the drama
i don't need another trauma .
i tired to play dalai lama
tonight i take the role of bad karma.
the last part of the saga.
i drink and smoke .
all i can see the effect of coke.
and i feel like a damn joke .
and nothing help.
i go from side to side .
and i can't decide
if you deserve
to be forgotten or die .
and i just won't cut any more veins.
you the one that should be in pain.

"No I don't wanna fall in love
No I don't wanna fall in love
With you …With you …."

i'm done lie that i'm ok .
i'm not i so mad and sad
and its not matter who i talk with
they don't seem to understand.
i guess i should know what you planned bitch !
leave me alone like a A dog that was abandoned.
and you not love me it was all pretend ? .
you was the sea and i just write on sand .
it was all washed away and now my love for you dead
find a new rag . and use it till he become dirty and wet.
and then throw it away you do the same to my heart
!fucking slut

"No I don't wanna fall in love
No I don't wanna fall in love
With you …With you …."

so now you know all
what was your goal ?
to break every part of me
now dark is all i see .
for god sake ! i just want to know
if you ever regret ? .
you not a girl .you fucking devil .
and i hate you so much that
if you die it just won't be enough..!
and i have to admit you got me down
on the ground . but i always rise above.
but good job ,you faked all .
left me in the dark . crawl on the floor
fix all you broke .with a bottle of gin and scotch .
and i punch every mirror . my hand bruised.
because when i look on myself i see you .
and if its the "wicked game" i lose too
YES I DO

"No I don't wanna fall in love
No I don't wanna fall in love
With you …With you ….With you …With you .With you …With you ….."