Darkening love

You trying to protect yourself,
But how? How?
You trying to be strong,
But walls of strength aren’t walls of faith.

You trying not to love,
But that only gave you pain.
You trying to forget about her,
But how?

Her picture in your mind just can’t erased,
You just can’t forget about her.
Her faded lips, her long frizzy hair, her beautiful darkening eyes,
I just can’t forget, I just can’t forget about her.

My love sting me,
My heart beat me,
My eyes watering,
My soul darkening,
My fear happens, another one shut me away,
Another reject, another girl ignoring, another feel of lost.

A new girl,
But I fear,
Fear from me, fear from her,
All the world is hurting, all the world is tearing me apart.

I go, trying to feel nothing,
I go, collapsing all my love,
I go, her picture in my soul,
I go, trying to forget what never happened.

My love try to fight me, try to come back,
I don’t agree, I’m running to the other way,
I’m running from this world,
Running from this pain,
Running from the love,
Because deep inside I know she wouldn’t want me.
 

My love sting me,
My heart beat me,
My eyes watering,
My soul darkening,
My fear happens, another one shut me away,
Another reject, another girl ignoring, another feel of lost.

I stack a knife inside my heart,
Pain, so paralyzing,
I can’t feel nothing,
So I keep pushing in,
Without thinking about the scar I made.

I see a couple,
I see a kiss,
I see happy,
I see a new girl,
But instead talk,
I just run.

Running scared,
Scared of love,
Tears are flooding,
Just can’t stop cry.

My scarred heart,
Fueled with love,
Just torn up,
Broken pieces thrown outside,
The lefts are blue and cold,
All I left,
Is shattered heart.
 

My love can’t sting me,
My heart can’t beat me,
My eyes aren’t watering,
My soul is already dark,
My fear happened, another one shut me away,
Another reject, another girl ignored,
Now I can’t feel,
Now I can’t breathe,
Now I can’t hurt my heart,
It’s already dead,
My scarred scattered heart is now black,
Black dead heart.