part of my life

I see, see all fears leave them slowly. It's not obvious, I'm anxious, I developed a teenager I feel that, after days, I was quite alone with my thoughts I suddenly discover a world happy, it's pretty rare and irrational it doesn't happen. Lately I like better than most, but I want to exercise all of me and it's sure to happen. I know that what happened was pretty bad and I don't even like to talk to people about my life in the past, if you can call it that, it was pretty bad, but I found myself after a lot of time and thought aroused me, fighting for my place and those moments that I experienced in my day, I'm sure he won't let anybody take me. But it's still hard for me to part I and quitter. But I'm a survivor, always. I was raised there and lived there long?. I believe in myself sometimes and some like myself sometimes. A part of me, I love to see the world live smoking it, which makes me happy, I try to give the best things take me. But afraid to lose it. I was hurt most of the time so it's kind of hard for me to get my own reviews because I'm judging myself. Then I'm down. Really.. I remember my brother disappeared once and this is the life which had such a dreadful time. … Try to log on to the frame without any request before it is difficult without support and understanding. I remember like it was yesterday, they came and took him and without him no big brother. Yes the third year I don't see that's hard. I'm so mad at everything he did that even to go and visit him I can't I won't lie. I miss a lot. I love and is a part of my life is the oldest one, he had no effect on my life, but I like his will and charisma, the risks he took because he wanted to prove something. I advanced slowly seeing another life I believe that he would soon with all my desire to see it of course at it will be really hard and weird and maybe have a family anymore. It all happens too fast I'm afraid to lose the rhythm for a while, I try to live and enjoy these little moments. To drink and laugh if not how can it continue? I don't want to withdraw and to think about it every day about how hard and bad in my life, but to become the best out of them and benefits.