Dad

You don't know what you are doing, you are confused, you have no choice- those are the reasons i give myself everyday to why you left. But it is not enough. I hope there is more to it, because if there isn't, my whole life were a big fat lie. Evertday i ask myself questions as when are you coming back? Do you miss me? I don't have answers, and the only thing that come up to my mind is more questions. I beg you, please don't leave me again. I need you here with me. we need you with us. And you need us with you too. I know you do because when you are out there, wherever it is, you are not happy. I saw it in your eyes. You can say you are happy and make everyone else believe in it. But you can not trick me. I know you can't be happy without me like i knoe i can't be happy without you. I can't escape and i can't run away. I am stucked at the same place for too long because l need you to keep going. I know your leaving means that you gave up on me, but i am not going to give up on you. I just can't. How can i give up on someone who raised me and have been there for me for 12 years? The answer is that i can't and i hope you will understand it soon and come back for me. I am waiting so hurry up, dad.