the girl with the brown hair

ever since lilly told me she was in love with her, i started to look at her every time i walked near her. she is pretty, i noticed, but i like boys. i am definitly not in love with her. so why do i get so excited when she's there? am i suppose to notice every time that she's breating? i dont know.
maybe i like her because many of my friends like girls. maybe i just want to be like them…