fuck

Fuck you.
Fuck you for taking me to the beach. Fuck you for smiling to me like that. Fuck you for the hug you give me every week. Fuck you for warming me when I was cold. Fuck you for hanging out with her and with me at the same time. Fuck you for driving me that day. Fuck you for breaking up with her so we would be able to be together. Fuck you for talking with me at that evening. Fuck you for telling me secrets. Fuck you for thinking about your ex-girlfriend. Fuck you for saying we can't be together. Fuck you for regretting it. Fuck you for saying you want us to try after all. Fuck you for regretting again. Fuck you for calling me to say it will not work. Fuck you for being so nice when you did that. Fuck you for confusing me.
Fuck me.
Fuck me for going with you that day. Fuck me for opening my heart to you. Fuck me for letting myself lay with you on the grass. Fuck me for talking to you every day. Fuck me for trying to make it work. Fuck me for thinking about you every second. Fuck me for being so nice. Fuck me for not having my own opinion. Fuck me for saying it's okay that you are playing with my heart. Fuck me for not trying to fight on you. Fuck me for failing at letting you go. Fuck me for being who I am.
Fuck.