I am

A coward, a fearful stupid kid. I'm just a little girl hiding from herself. Words I can no longer control, oh how I miss the days when everything was much better than today. Who am I supposed to be? How have I gone broken? So many things I wish to change yet my mind just screams, not knowing what to do. On one side I am just a crying baby, and on another I am smiling and laughing. Now tell me, Who am I supposed to be?

Stupid, so stupid. Is it really all just in my mind? Am I really going crazy?! How can I change that?…
She calls it "The voice" in my head. Maybe it is, maybe it is all just me being so stupid again.

Sinking, drowning down into the dark sea in my heart, or is it my mind now? Ever bit of me is drowning slowly and losing its importance. I keep waling, I keep talking, I keep living, yet why am I feeling so hopeless? So empty, missing somethings that are so far from me. Oh why can't you just return? I want you back so much, I want you to return to me, I want you to come back to me, why aren't you coming? Where have you gone?!

Hating myself, when will it end? When will it start? The pain of being disappointed in my self is overflowing and drowning me in a dark sea, when will I find the sun to guide me to the surface?

A monster

A kid who knows nothing

Me