after the SMS

I want to ask you something, are you alive or just breathing?
Are you one of these sad teens with happy faces or you happy inside and outside of you?
My best friend told me that the pepole who laughing and smiling every day they are usually the pepole who wear a mask on their faces every day.
And you know what? He's right!
Im just breathing, Im one of these sad teens with happy faces, Im wearing a mask every day!
You might be asking, why the hell do you do that? Are you crazy or bored or something like that?
The answer is NO, Im doing it every day because I love you, because I dont want you to know that Im one of these teens, because I dont want you to think that Im sad and boring person.
But now it isnt matter because you love her, she doest try to impress you and thats what enchant you.
So… I guess you will love her until she will broke. your heart, you will be brave for 5 minutes and than she will say you no.
You will cry, you will be angry and scared and you will go to me, asking for advice, for a shoulder to cry on, but you wont resive that, in the first time in your life you will hear "no" you will be angry but Im already dont care.
You need to understand-I will give you everything I have, but if you will hurt me I will take everything bake and you will never be able to resive it again.
So go and love your sweetie, love her for these 5 fuking days and throw away all my 4 months.
I realy want to love you but it hurting me too hard, babe-I cant love you anymore, I cant be nice and eat your shit every day, so… Bye